RL vs SL

59 W 12th Street . 7:23 pm . September 8, 2007 .

I've been visiting Second Life daily since I first started "playing" on Thursday. I've been in my apartment on both occasions and by myself. I feel very inclined to shut off Real Life completely the minute I log in, but it's extremely hard to focus my attention solely on one of my two worlds. It gets complicated (and a tad schizophrenic) with things like conversations. Ainat starts talking to someone and then my phone rings, people IM me, etc. I'm aware that I have to make a bigger effort to disconnect from things around me as I Second Live the Second Life.

I wanted to state the fact sooner rather than later that this blog will be mainly about my Second Life experiences. Other New School tales and endeavors will be included eventually but for now zarat228 is about Ainat. It's funny how I talk about her as if she was someone else. I guess she is someone else or, in any case, I want her to be.

I think about this a lot during the day. The words Ainat Lunasea have been stuck in my head all weekend. I'm starting to care about her well being greatly. It's a very motherly feeling. I get nervous when other avatars approach her, feel weird when they turn and walk away, always make her walk slowly, read all the instructions carefully. I want her to be the best she can be and actually take this very seriously. I don't perceive it as a game even when others consider it so. I want to be the best navigator, dominate all the tricks and rules and functions in order for Ainat to have a prosperous life in Second Life.